#56: Ruth (SX/SO 9w1 973): Seductive Merging with the Divine, the Rude Awakening of Self-Care, and Reclaiming Sensation Through the Body

08/07/2025 1h 41min
#56: Ruth (SX/SO 9w1 973): Seductive Merging with the Divine, the Rude Awakening of Self-Care, and Reclaiming Sensation Through the Body

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Ruth (SX/SO 9w1 973) joins us for a luminous and radical exploration of the Sexual 9's longing for union — with God, with others, and, ultimately, with herself. From an early age, Ruth’s life was shaped by profound mystical experiences: claiming Jesus at three, and at nine, encountering a vision of him entering her body — not metaphorically, but viscerally, as a wave of physical love. These moments left an imprint, becoming the compass by which she navigated the world — always reaching for a love that could hold her entire being. We explore how this early spiritual intensity tethered her to external sources of nourishment — church, relationships, ideals — while a deeper hunger for selfhood remained dormant, waiting to be reclaimed. Her story takes a sharp turn in her late 30s, when a “rude awakening” forced her to prioritize self-care and embodiment. What unfolds is a quiet revolution: the shift from merging to individuation, from numbing to sensation, from floating in spirit to landing in body. Google Doc containing all of Ruth’s poems, art, and links; https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_HCMlPkNOTMyt87PAmhI36jPTIIR71PaTxFw6oYDa5A/edit?usp=sharing LINKS Learn at The Enneagram School https://theenneagramschool.com/ Intro Course https://www.theenneagramschool.com/intro-enneagram-course Get Typed https://www.enneagrammer.com/ Sinsomnia Podcast (Dreams) https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/sinsomnia/id1684154994 House of Enneagram https://www.youtube.com/@houseofenneagram TIMESTAMPS 00:00 - Intro 03:20 - Unburdening the self from a narrative arch 13:07 - Self-preservation blind externalizing the body through the church 30:57 - Abandoning will and choice in areas of life 34:59 - Sexual dominant; ecstatic states causing self-abandonment 45:55 - ‘Go find your mountain’; stepping into the world with confidence 50:44 - Questioning faith, ‘the fall’ to Earth and becoming a person 1:00:50 - Building a tolerance to regulating stress 1:11:44 - Connecting with the mundane self-preservation independently 1:21:28 - Understanding the natural rhythms and life force of the body 1:39:16 - Outro CREDITS Interview by Josh Lavine Edited by Kristen Oberly Music by Coma-Media from Pixabay Coma-Media: https://pixabay.com/users/coma-media-24399569/ Pixabay: https://pixabay.com/ --- #enneagram #enneagramtypes #enneagram9

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