Chapter 14: Hot Mess

11/08/2025 17 min

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Episode Synopsis

"If a man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark.”— Saint John of the Cross"Late last year, I was in the middle of presenting a CreightonModel Introductory Session in my home office to a newly engaged couple when I suddenly felt a steep rise in temperature. My skin was damp and clammy at first, then it began to release larger drops of moisture, typically referred to as sweat. I went from sitting comfortably inside of my air-conditioned home to sweating and questioning the functionality of the AC in a matter of seconds. It was so unexpectedly jarring that I lost my place in the presentationand asked the couple “Did it just get really hot in here?” thinking something might be wrong with the AC...""...I could blame God for allowing my fertility to slowly take itsfinal bow before using it to create a new life. I could fuss at Him for not ripping the band aid off by telling me sooner. I could curse Him for giving me this dreaded uterus and ovaries in the first place. But how can I not be grateful for the woman He is shaping me into? How can I not be grateful that it brought us our adopted daughter? How can I not be grateful for awakening desires I had no idea were buried deep within my heart? It may be a different process for someone else, but the delicate delivery of this bad news over time was exactly what this girl needed. It is comforting to me to witness how intentional and tailor-made God’s plans are. None of us are forgotten or slip through the cracks..."