Listen "S3_E12: Allie - MS Didn’t Break Me. Silence Almost Did"
Episode Synopsis
Content Warning: This episode contains discussion of childhood trauma, depression, and suicidal ideation, which may be distressing for some listeners. What happens when you spend your life holding it all together—only to realize it’s been breaking you inside? In this powerful episode, Allie Schmidl shares what it meant to live in silence after her 2022 MS diagnosis—buried beneath shame, fear, and the weight of a lifetime of unspoken trauma. But MS wasn’t the only battle she was fighting. We talk about the weight of vulnerability, the fear of being seen as broken, and what happens when even your body starts telling the story you’ve tried to silence. Allie opens up about surviving divorce, the ache of parental abandonment, and the quiet devastation of feeling invisible in your own pain. “I was beating myself up a little bit over how I got to where I am… I felt like this was my fault.” — Allie Schmidl But this isn’t just a story of darkness—it’s one of reckoning, healing, and choosing to be heard. If you’ve ever felt unseen, unheard, or afraid no one would stay if they knew the truth—this episode is for you.