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Listen "Living In The Past: Emotionally Driven or Spiritually Led"
Episode Synopsis
Today Autumn the Weimaranar and Boris the English Bulldog make another stunning and well-behaved appearance. If you aren't too starstruck after that, I talk about the difference
between being emotionally driven or spiritually led. Steps 1, 2, and 3 along with repeating the serenity prayer over and over again each day helped me to acknowledge what I can control and what I can't. Most importantly it taught me to pause to make that determination and don't react while I'm figure it out. By learning these simple, but not easy, practices I began following a spiritual map that all the other drunks before me had drawn up.
These steps allowed me to be who I really am and start moving forward. I have been learning how to let go of stories about my past that caused pain, anger, sadness, and resentments including how I was treated by others. I had to be willing to let go of old pain from the past to live without alcohol. I spent so long pouring alcohol over those feeling to drown them but they never die. They just sink to the bottom
of the pool until the pool runs dry and then they are still there.
This is why I stood still. This is why I watched others grow in their lives and change while I mourned for the past. It was painful to be left behind.
Our past impacts our self-esteem, relationships, and overall personality development. However, individual experiences and coping mechanisms vary. We develop fears that shape the way we recover from chronic illnesses and life events. The abandonment fears that I have developed over my lifetime have transferred into unhealthy reactions to life events including recovery, but by living in the spiritual steps I let go over and over.
It’s dangerous for me to feel past pain, feel sorry for myself, and isolate. If I let these emotions drive my behavior, I will inadvertently hurt others in my life, weaken my relationships and increase my pain. I'm more introspective and self-caring when I let my spirituality lead me by practicing mindfulness, meditation, and being of service to others. I nurture relationships and I'm gentle with myself.
between being emotionally driven or spiritually led. Steps 1, 2, and 3 along with repeating the serenity prayer over and over again each day helped me to acknowledge what I can control and what I can't. Most importantly it taught me to pause to make that determination and don't react while I'm figure it out. By learning these simple, but not easy, practices I began following a spiritual map that all the other drunks before me had drawn up.
These steps allowed me to be who I really am and start moving forward. I have been learning how to let go of stories about my past that caused pain, anger, sadness, and resentments including how I was treated by others. I had to be willing to let go of old pain from the past to live without alcohol. I spent so long pouring alcohol over those feeling to drown them but they never die. They just sink to the bottom
of the pool until the pool runs dry and then they are still there.
This is why I stood still. This is why I watched others grow in their lives and change while I mourned for the past. It was painful to be left behind.
Our past impacts our self-esteem, relationships, and overall personality development. However, individual experiences and coping mechanisms vary. We develop fears that shape the way we recover from chronic illnesses and life events. The abandonment fears that I have developed over my lifetime have transferred into unhealthy reactions to life events including recovery, but by living in the spiritual steps I let go over and over.
It’s dangerous for me to feel past pain, feel sorry for myself, and isolate. If I let these emotions drive my behavior, I will inadvertently hurt others in my life, weaken my relationships and increase my pain. I'm more introspective and self-caring when I let my spirituality lead me by practicing mindfulness, meditation, and being of service to others. I nurture relationships and I'm gentle with myself.
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