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Episode Synopsis
SEASON 3, EPISODE 10Welcome to Backstage with Randy Phillips - a lighthearted dialogue meant to inspire every heart and home to live a life of purpose. ABOUT THIS EPISODEIn this powerful Backstage with Randy Phillips season finale, bestselling author, podcaster, and former divorce attorney Toni Nieuwhof shares her journey from toxic shame to true healing—and how even the most impressive résumé can hide deep emotional pain. With honesty, humor, and faith, Tony opens up about:• Her marriage struggles with Carey Nieuwhof• The lie of performance-based identity• How shame shaped her parenting and faith• Practical steps to heal through counseling, EMDR, and spiritual practices• A beautiful breath prayer that’s helped her experience God’s love daily Whether you’re battling feelings of worthlessness, overachieving to feel accepted, or questioning your value, this conversation will bring freedom, clarity, and hope. STAY CONNECTED• Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lifefamilymedia/• Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/LifeAustin• Apple Podcasts: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/randy-phillips/1618265626• Spotify Podcasts: https://open.spotify.com/artist/13KLcr7XlewPs2Xva58AgU Connect With Pastor Randy: https://www.instagram.com/randypcd/ Connect With Toni: https://toninieuwhof.com/ #ToxicShame #ChristianHealing #BeLoved#TonyNewhoff #BackstagePodcast #MarriageHealing#FaithOverPerformance #HealingJourney #LovedByGod TIMESTAMPS00:00 – Welcome to the Season Finale 00:28 – Meet Tony Newhoff: Lawyer, Pastor’s Wife, Believer 01:55 – The Unusual Call to Divorce Law 03:12 – The Story Behind “Before You Split” 04:24 – A Marriage Restored After Nearly Giving Up 06:00 – Should Every Marriage Be Saved? 07:29 – How the Church Can Support Women Better 09:02 – Helping People Love Being Home 10:24 – The Home Environment and Family Climate 11:09 – Why Counseling Belongs in the Church 12:46 – Bringing Christ’s Light into Therapy 14:06 – The Resume That Masked Deep Shame 15:14 – The Hidden Pain of Childhood Abuse 16:45 – From Self-Sufficiency to Healing 18:07 – How Shame Shaped Her Parenting 20:00 – When Independence Feels Like Isolation 21:38 – Hope for Women Battling Shame 23:10 – Tools That Helped Tony Heal 24:02 – Shame, Genesis, and the Voice of the Enemy 25:34 – Shame Revealed Slowly Over Time 27:10 – Timeline of Healing and God’s Faithfulness 28:04 – Meditative Prayer Practice on God’s Love 29:03 – Breath Prayer: “Be Loved / Beloved” 30:09 – Why This Practice Has Changed Her Life 30:48 – Closing Words and Blessing Music: Alive - Instrumental by Lone WavesLicensed through Musicbed (License Code: MB01IPNQAEO0FGD)
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