In this brutally honest and wildly relatable solo episode, the host dives into what it's like trying to survive online school while mentally glitched out and emotionally fried. They talk about juggling schizophrenia, depression, dissociation, and social anxiety—while also pretending to be a “functional” college student. If you’ve ever felt like you’re buffering through life, half-human, half-error message, this one hits home.You’ll hear chaotic thoughts on lectures, dissociation during Zoom calls, unwashed planners, planner stickers, and why squirrels have life more figured out than most people. It’s vulnerable, weird, funny, sad, and surprisingly hopeful in that “I’m still here, even if I don’t know why” kinda way. Great for students, mentally ill creatives, and anyone who’s had an existential crisis at 3AM while watching a lecture they forgot to finish.Topics Covered (for SEO + indexing):Mental health in online collegeLiving with schizophrenia, depression, DID, and social anxietyCollege burnout and existential fatigueOnline learning vs. in-person classesFeeling disconnected in digital spaces (Zoom/Canvas)Hygiene struggles and executive dysfunctionProductivity guilt and planner shameDissociation during classFeeling invisible in academiaHumor as a coping mechanismBuffering brain and attention glitchesThe difference between meditation and dissociationTrying to measure progress with mental illnessThe feeling of being “haunted” by your own thoughtsMotivation vs. survival modeWanting to finish anything (college, a vlog, a sandwich)Identity crises in schoolComparing yourself to a squirrel eating a CheetoWanting to matter—even in the backgroundFeeling like a glitchy NPC in lifeHope in hopelessnessFunctioning while mentally overloadedPretending to be okay as survivalAcademic pressure with neurodivergenceInternalized failure and educational traumaCrashing, restarting, but still trying

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