We live multiple lives. Each one of us have variations, but everyday our paths fork out. And we move from the secure to the stormy; from standing naked to being armoured; from garnering the blessings of the universe to ploughing through the detritus of the denizery.
 
Often we are able to navigate this transition in the simplest way possible - we remain the same in every world, raw and uncluttered, ready to take the blows for being us. But more often then not, we tweak our selves to the scenarios in front and archetypes expected, to fit in, to flit through, without too much damage to the world or ourselves.
 
But it’s not always easy, definitely not for the sensitive soul, which wants to remain true and get by peacefully. And I say to such people - go gently, be true. For there is a reward at the end of every struggle to fit in or not - to be recognised for being authentic. And the universe invariably converges its rewards towards such people, albeit slowly, dreadfully so.
 
I learned to stay in two worlds as two people for a long time. And it was extremely strenuous apart from being incontrovertibly inauthentic. Until I could no longer be what I was not. I have no memory of the inflection point, the moment when something inside me said “I will implode.” But I dropped pretences. And I lost friends. And I got peace.
 
I seeked lesser commitments, I could speak my mind with ease, I could say no with complete peace of mind, and I walked guiltless.
 
The drainpipe of my worlds became a bridge, and both my worlds converged into one.
 

If you liked this poem, consider listening to these other poems on the struggles we face in our daily lifes - 
I Like The Ordinary Life
What Stretches in Front
The Passing of Autumn


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The details of the music used in this episode are as follows -
Misty lights by Rafael Krux

Melodic Interlude Two by Alexander Nakarada

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