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Episode Synopsis
Warrior woman, this one is a little messy.
A little raw.
A little “thinking on the mic.”
I’ve been sitting with a really big decision for almost 10 months — circling it, questioning myself, wondering if my intuition was blocked, asking whether clarity is a mindset thing, a nervous system thing, or an identity thing.
For months, I didn’t have the answer.
And honestly… I thought something was wrong with me.
But what I’ve learned is this:
Nothing was wrong with me — I just wasn’t ready. My nervous system wasn’t ready. My life wasn’t ready. I wasn’t her yet
In this EP, I take you inside that whole internal process — the questions, the frustration, the anger, the capacity-building, the surrender (the real kind, not the Instagram kind), and how clarity finally came… not because I manifested it, but because my bod could finally hold it.
Girl...If you’re in the in-between — if you’re circling a big decision, if you’re questioning yourself, if you feel like you “should” know the answer but don’t — this EP is for you darling.
Key Takeaways
Not knowing doesn’t mean you’re broken — it means your future self isn’t fully formed yet.
Clarity isn’t just mindset.
Big decisions require big identity shifts — and those take time.
You can be a slow decision-maker and a fast executor.
Intuition might not be “woo."
Surrender is not passive.
Becoming is slow.
Powerful Quotes
“Not knowing doesn’t mean you’re behind — it means your future self isn’t ready yet.”
“Maybe intuition isn’t magic. Maybe it’s just perception plus regulation.”
“I’m a slow decision-maker, but a fast executor. Once I know… I move.”
“Surrender isn’t trusting the universe — it’s letting go of urgency while you build the capacity to hold something big.”
“Sometimes your nervous system isn’t saying no… it’s saying not yet.”
In this deeply personal solo episode of The Warrior School Podcast, Amy unpacks a 10-month season of “not knowing” and what it taught her about intuition, nervous system capacity, identity, and big life decisions. This episode is for the woman who is circling a decision, questioning her intuition, or feeling stuck in the in-between.
You’ll learn why clarity often takes longer than you think, how the nervous system influences decision-making, the difference between intuition and perception, and how to build the capacity to hold big identity-level changes. If you’re in a season of uncertainty, this episode will help you feel seen, grounded, and supported.
THIS EPISODE IS FOR:
Women who are circling a big decision and don’t have the answer yet
Anyone who feels stuck in the in-between and is wondering if something’s “wrong” with them
High-achieving women who want to build the physical and emotional capacity to hold a bigger life
Leaders, creators, coaches — the women who are becoming someone new, even if it’s slow, even if it’s messy
THE WOMEN WHO TRAIN SURVEY
Is this you?
A woman in her 40s who’s doing all the right things — lifting, walking, fuelling — but still not seeing the strength, shape, or confidence you expected because you’re not sure what the right thing is for your body, in the right way, at the right time?
If yes, I’d love you to complete this short survey.
Please complete the survey by December 14th '25 to go into the draw to win a 60-minute 1:1 Build Your 2026 Body Strategy Session with me — plus a limited-edition Warrior School sweater for one lucky runner-up.
Link to survey
https://amy639434.typeform.com/to/ciB5yQlH
📲 SHARE + SUBSCRIBE
If this episode hit something in you — share it with a woman who’s in her own season of “not knowing.”
Tag @amykatebowe with your biggest takeaway.
Leave a review.
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Keep showing up for the woman you’re becoming.
A little raw.
A little “thinking on the mic.”
I’ve been sitting with a really big decision for almost 10 months — circling it, questioning myself, wondering if my intuition was blocked, asking whether clarity is a mindset thing, a nervous system thing, or an identity thing.
For months, I didn’t have the answer.
And honestly… I thought something was wrong with me.
But what I’ve learned is this:
Nothing was wrong with me — I just wasn’t ready. My nervous system wasn’t ready. My life wasn’t ready. I wasn’t her yet
In this EP, I take you inside that whole internal process — the questions, the frustration, the anger, the capacity-building, the surrender (the real kind, not the Instagram kind), and how clarity finally came… not because I manifested it, but because my bod could finally hold it.
Girl...If you’re in the in-between — if you’re circling a big decision, if you’re questioning yourself, if you feel like you “should” know the answer but don’t — this EP is for you darling.
Key Takeaways
Not knowing doesn’t mean you’re broken — it means your future self isn’t fully formed yet.
Clarity isn’t just mindset.
Big decisions require big identity shifts — and those take time.
You can be a slow decision-maker and a fast executor.
Intuition might not be “woo."
Surrender is not passive.
Becoming is slow.
Powerful Quotes
“Not knowing doesn’t mean you’re behind — it means your future self isn’t ready yet.”
“Maybe intuition isn’t magic. Maybe it’s just perception plus regulation.”
“I’m a slow decision-maker, but a fast executor. Once I know… I move.”
“Surrender isn’t trusting the universe — it’s letting go of urgency while you build the capacity to hold something big.”
“Sometimes your nervous system isn’t saying no… it’s saying not yet.”
In this deeply personal solo episode of The Warrior School Podcast, Amy unpacks a 10-month season of “not knowing” and what it taught her about intuition, nervous system capacity, identity, and big life decisions. This episode is for the woman who is circling a decision, questioning her intuition, or feeling stuck in the in-between.
You’ll learn why clarity often takes longer than you think, how the nervous system influences decision-making, the difference between intuition and perception, and how to build the capacity to hold big identity-level changes. If you’re in a season of uncertainty, this episode will help you feel seen, grounded, and supported.
THIS EPISODE IS FOR:
Women who are circling a big decision and don’t have the answer yet
Anyone who feels stuck in the in-between and is wondering if something’s “wrong” with them
High-achieving women who want to build the physical and emotional capacity to hold a bigger life
Leaders, creators, coaches — the women who are becoming someone new, even if it’s slow, even if it’s messy
THE WOMEN WHO TRAIN SURVEY
Is this you?
A woman in her 40s who’s doing all the right things — lifting, walking, fuelling — but still not seeing the strength, shape, or confidence you expected because you’re not sure what the right thing is for your body, in the right way, at the right time?
If yes, I’d love you to complete this short survey.
Please complete the survey by December 14th '25 to go into the draw to win a 60-minute 1:1 Build Your 2026 Body Strategy Session with me — plus a limited-edition Warrior School sweater for one lucky runner-up.
Link to survey
https://amy639434.typeform.com/to/ciB5yQlH
📲 SHARE + SUBSCRIBE
If this episode hit something in you — share it with a woman who’s in her own season of “not knowing.”
Tag @amykatebowe with your biggest takeaway.
Leave a review.
Hit follow.
Keep showing up for the woman you’re becoming.
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