A day after my birthday, I had an unpleasant experience. The previous year, the birthday was the exact day for the unpleasant experience. Somewhere in my mind, I had that “well, I kinda was expecting it” thought, about this year’s not so good experience. Trust me, this is very much nothing about negative cycles, and I was in my feelings when I had that thought. So…. This unpleasant experience isn’t one of those ones that could be undone, I’m not even exaggerating. Well, unless you have a time-travel machine of some sort.

I’ll give you a hint. It has something to do with losing memories and now, irreplaceable files and discussions. Ring a bell?

I cried. About this experience I had. I mean, I didn’t plan my day to go that way. I ought to be revelling in the euphoria of a new year; particularly because the previous year was a good one, with changes in areas I had truly desired. So, I actually cried. Quite some thick tears. Sincere tears if you may. But some things now stand out whenever I look back on that particular day. Some of the original thoughts and other ones that ministered to me afterwards are the things I’d be sharing. I hope it blesses your heart.

Psalms 142: 1-3a KJV
“I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication. I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble. When my spirit was overwhelmed within me”
Psalms 3: 4 “I cried unto the LORD with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill.”

1. I sought comfort. I got so overwhelmed within me that I began to cry. I didn’t even think I had it in me to cry that much. I don’t know if anyone has ever been in that situation where your reaction to things shocks you so much that it feels like you’re watching yourself from outside your body. In that moment of overwhelming emotions, I summoned strength and sought comfort in God. I kept asking for help as I lay on the floor crying, my emotions got welled up and it seemed like the time I even cried more, but I stayed there. As ironic as it may sound, I enjoyed sharing that beautiful moment of pain with the Lord. It seemed like a precious and intimate moment that no one else should have witnessed really.
I was really surprised at that moment as I kind of watched myself cry. It was just a technical glitch, God wasn’t going to fix it because he doesn’t relate with phones and gadgets, but asking for help and strength at that moment was just enough. I stood up from that spot lighter than I was initially. There are things that only God can truly do. My chest was still contracting from hurting, but there was peace and I loved it. Afterwards, I sought encouragement from the brethren, and it was easy to embrace it because the actual comforting I needed had been received. This leads me to my second point.

2. Seeking comfort from the Lord will require sincerity and vulnerability. David proves this in some of his writings in the book of Psalms. I sincerely wonder how he was able to put his specific emotions into words. Being sincere really just helps you pour out your heart. It’s no longer a strange term at the Tribe, the idea of sincerity. It also shouldn’t be news that God is interested in the minutest detail about our lives, but we will have to be sincere and vulnerable with him, so we can receive the fullness of that comfort. This part involves our emotions. Pastor had mentioned on Thursday, during the July edition of physical Bible study that emotions aren’t to be tossed aside. They are there to be felt and experienced and God doesn’t think any less of you when you express them. He’s a good father and he’ll find joy in your sharing that moment with Him. Receiving God’s comfort isn’t complete if you won’t be emotional with him.

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