Sometimes when my eyes are red I go up on top of the RCA Building           and gaze at my world, Manhattan—                      my buildings, streets I’ve done feats in,                            lofts, beds, coldwater flats —on Fifth Ave below which I also bear in mind,           its ant cars, little yellow taxis, men                walking the size of specks of wool—   Panorama of the bridges, sunrise over Brooklyn machine,          sun go down over New Jersey where I was born             & Paterson where I played with ants—   my later loves on 15th Street,          my greater loves of Lower East Side,             my once fabulous amours in the Bronx                                           faraway—   paths crossing in these hidden streets,      my history summed up, my absences                and ecstasies in Harlem—      —sun shining down on all I own       in one eyeblink to the horizon               in my last eternity—                                     matter is water.Sad,      I take the elevator and go             down, pondering,and walk on the pavements staring into all man’s                                           plateglass, faces,             questioning after who loves,      and stop, bemused             in front of an automobile shopwindow      standing lost in calm thought,             traffic moving up & down 5th Avenue blocks behind me                         waiting for a moment when ...Time to go home & cook supper & listen to                      the romantic war news on the radio                                        ... all movement stops& I walk in the timeless sadness of existence,         tenderness flowing thru the buildings,             my fingertips touching reality’s face,      my own face streaked with tears in the mirror                of some window—at dusk—                                     where I have no desire—      for bonbons—or to own the dresses or Japanese                         lampshades of intellection—Confused by the spectacle around me,          Man struggling up the street                     with packages, newspapers,                                           ties, beautiful suits                        toward his desire          Man, woman, streaming over the pavements                        red lights clocking hurried watches &                               movements at the curb—And all these streets leading          so crosswise, honking, lengthily,                            by avenues          stalked by high buildings or crusted into slums                            thru such halting traffic                                           screaming cars and engines   so painfully to this          countryside, this graveyard                     this stillness                                           on deathbed or mountain             once seen                            never regained or desired                                           in the mind to comewhere all Manhattan that I’ve seen must disappear.ENJOY MOREThe Ceylon Press publishes a range of podcasts including The History Of Sri Lanka; the off-grid Jungle Diaries podcast; Island Stories, the podcast that explores what makes Sri Lanka, Sri Lankan; the Wild Isle Podcast: Stories from Sri Lanka’s Nature; a range of complete Audio Books about Sri Lanka; as well as Poetry from The Jungle.  All these, along with eBooks, dictionaries, guides and companions can be found at www.theceylonpress.com, based at The Flame Tree Estate & Hotel in the jungle northwest of Kandy: www.flametreeestate.com.  The copyright of this podcast recording is David Swarbrick @The Ceylon Press 2025. POETRY FROM THE JUNGLE GRATEFULLY ACKNOWLEDGES THE COPYRIGHT CREDIT: Copyright Credit: Allen Ginsberg, “My Sad Self” from Collected Poems, 1947-1980. Copyright © 1984 by Allen Ginsberg.

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