When Everything Feels Loud and Messy

09/11/2025 19 min

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Episode Synopsis

Do I fit in, in this industry? I have really started to question everything! I’m not doing great right now, and that’s what this episode is about. After finishing the Appalachian Trail FKT, there’s been a crash, the kind that comes after spending months focused on one goal. This episode is me reading and performing my Substack piece, Location Unknown, and trying to make sense of what comes next.Post-trail depression is real. It’s the space after the high, when you’ve changed but the world hasn’t. I talk about what it feels like to lose direction, how authenticity can be misunderstood, and how I’m trying to figure things out again.Thanks for listening, supporting, and being part of this. You can find more of my writing on Substack, and if you want to support what I do, check out the show sponsors:https://freeoutside.substack.com/Janji.com — use code FREEOUTSIDE for a discount and to support the showGarageGrownGear.com — the best place for small outdoor brands and gear that lastsCSInstant.Coffee —Actual Premium instant coffeeChapters00:00 – Opening03:00 – Substack Reading06:30 – Post-Trail Depression09:00 – Appalachian Trail13:30 – Coming Home16:00 – Integration18:00 – ClosingSubscribe to Substack: http://freeoutside.substack.comSupport this content on patreon: HTTP://patreon.com/freeoutsideBuy my book "Free Outside" on Amazon: https://amzn.to/39LpoSFEmail me to buy a signed copy of my book, "Free Outside" at [email protected] the movie about setting the record on the Colorado Trail: https://tubitv.com/movies/100019916/free-outsideWebsite: www.Freeoutside.comInstagram: thefreeoutsidefacebook: www.facebook.com/freeoutside