Listen "03. this is a one way road "
Episode Synopsis
A very personal account of the extreme feelings that lead me to quit my full time / part time jobs, and commit to working for myself.
This is a continuation of my series on wayfinding (my series of jumps into the void), featuring Jump #2: from aspiring writer with a 9-5 job — to deciding to become an entrepreneur.
I’ll explore these topics:
the ever-present feeling of wasting my life
life as a recovering good asian daughter / repressed creative / secret obscurus
the idea of energetic reciprocity as an embodied feeling
the notion that in order to feel safe, you must compromise yourself
an infinite earning potential as a metaphor for expansion
the desire to give 100% to the work that belonged to me
escaping the cycle of job samsara
My “one way road” was more like a deeply anxiety-provoking, messy, uncertain, tangled wandering in the dark. but I’ll explain why it was (and still is) worth every second.
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This is a continuation of my series on wayfinding (my series of jumps into the void), featuring Jump #2: from aspiring writer with a 9-5 job — to deciding to become an entrepreneur.
I’ll explore these topics:
the ever-present feeling of wasting my life
life as a recovering good asian daughter / repressed creative / secret obscurus
the idea of energetic reciprocity as an embodied feeling
the notion that in order to feel safe, you must compromise yourself
an infinite earning potential as a metaphor for expansion
the desire to give 100% to the work that belonged to me
escaping the cycle of job samsara
My “one way road” was more like a deeply anxiety-provoking, messy, uncertain, tangled wandering in the dark. but I’ll explain why it was (and still is) worth every second.
--
read the text for this podcast episode
visit me on my website-world
sign up for my weekly newsletter
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