Send me a Text MessageThe Adapted Life Podcast Season 3 Episode 29 4 months of grieving.  This is a checking in, of sorts.  Before I begin, I would like to reach out and let you know that if you are also grieving, and that this resonates with you, please let me know.   Especially if you once had an overly full life of caregiving for someone who is now gone and you feel lost.   Or just that you feel lost.  On the other side, having lost my son and experiencing this thing called grief, I’ve found myself in a crazy storm of adapting.  Of surviving.  Of figuring out just what the heck to do. I am surrounded by blessings, but also by endless triggers that remind me of what life was like caring for Daniel.  Most days I truly feel like I am losing touch with sanity.  I still dissociate often.  And this is where I am going through the motions, but do not feel like I am actually in my body, more like I am floating outside of it not connected to anything. I share a list of some of the things I've been doing. I GOT THE NUMBERS WRONG IN THE RECORDING.  PLEASE FORGIVE ME, FOCUS DOES NOT COME EASY THESE DAYS!Trying.  Trying to find light when it feels so dark.   I talk often around here, about a vision that I had of Daniel…. In my vision, or dream, not sure, I saw his face and he was asking me if I could feel the light.  “Can you feel the light Mom?”  It was so real …. I woke up startled.  So I focus on light.  Light in the day. Light in the dark.  Light.  Here is a poem I wrote about light.  The kind of light I imagine that shines from Heaven.LightThe simple act of visualizingBrought me to a brighter lightGlimmering. Radiant, white almostStreaking in from the Spring morningWhen I woke I knew the sun was outWalking the dogs I was warmYet after my space of meditationDuring which my pain released its tearsMy eyes opened to a different lightSo shiny and strong it was soThat I took a picture of the window Through which is was comingThe morning was no different Than other mornings I sawHow could it be so much brighter nowPulsating and casting white radianceThen a message came to my tired heartAnd I lay my hands on its beatingThe light was not from the outside It was coming straight from me. May 7, 2024Missing my Daniel every second.My YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQr7Ot0J0o6_gRnG_fJvzDgFacebook https://www.facebook.com/juliehasselbergeryoutube/opportunities please email : [email protected] the showhttps://www.etsy.com/shop/DanielsSpecialArt?ref=seller-platform-mcnavhttps://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQr7Ot0J0o6_gRnG_fJvzDg

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