For anyone who has ever searched outside themselves, aching to feel whole again — this is for you.
I spent much of my life looking outside myself to find myself — not realizing that what I ached and yearned for most had always been within.
Early on in my healing, I came to understand that my addiction to alcohol and drugs wasn’t truly about escape — it was about longing. A deep, sacred yearning for peace… for the bliss of union with God.
I believed that in becoming human — in taking on this form — I had somehow been separated from God. Or as I prefer to say: separated from Love, from Source.
But this isn’t just my story. It’s the quiet truth beneath all addiction — all compulsions, all the restless searching outside ourselves. Whether it’s substances, relationships, approval, control, or distraction… what we’re really seeking is to come home.
We spend our lives searching — reaching, striving, looking outward — when in fact the only true journey is inward, into the sacred heart space within.
And even that… is not really a search.
Because one day, quietly, we come to understand:
There is nothing missing.
There is nothing to become.
In any given moment, we are already all of it.
All peace.
All love.
All presence — here and now.
Nigel Lott teaandzen.org
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