For many performers, the voice can feel like a mystery. You practice the techniques, you know the music, but a persistent block, chronic tension, or crippling stage fright holds you back from your true potential. What if the root of that struggle isn't in your technique, but in your history?

The body keeps a score of our experiences, and for a singer, whose very instrument is their body, the impact of past trauma can be profound. Unresolved trauma can manifest as physical "body armoring," a deep sense of being unsafe on stage, and a destructive inner critic.

To explore this powerful connection, Therapevo’s Caleb Simonyi-Gindele sat down with our colleague Ron de Jager. Ron lives at the unique intersection of world-class performance and clinical counselling. As a Doctor of Musical Arts, an accomplished vocalist, and a specialist therapist, he offers a unique and compassionate perspective on what it takes to heal the instrument and set your voice free.

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Here is a polished transcript of their conversation.



Why is a singer’s experience of trauma so profoundly different?
Caleb: For our listeners, can you start by explaining one of the powerful statements from your research: "A singer's body is his or her instrument." Why does that make a singer's experience of trauma so profoundly different?

Ron: I started as a pianist, so my instrument was here in front of me. It was me and the instrument, and the audience was there. Then all of a sudden, you take that away and it's just me. That becomes a much more vulnerable situation.

When you're vulnerable, more things will start to show up. We might be a little bit naive in thinking that we've got it masked and covered very well, but sometimes the audience is pretty perceptive. No matter our best job at covering it, our body will still show certain things. As a singing teacher, I started to become aware of those things, like, "Where is that showing up, why is it showing up, and what is it indicative of?" It's a symptom of something rather than just being the problem.

Just something like getting nervous—if you get a little nervous when you're speaking, the voice can start to quiver, you don't get enough breath underneath it, and all of a sudden you squeak and crack. That body stuff might show up more for singers than other kinds of musicians because it's just you and your voice out there.
How can past trauma manifest in a singer’s performance?
Caleb: You've said that trauma affects the entire organism—physical, mental, social, and spiritual. Can you give us an example of how a past trauma, like childhood sexual abuse, might manifest in a singer's voice or performance in a way that most of us would probably not even recognize?

Ron: For sure. Especially if it's undealt with, it can show up physically in different ways. Some things that I've noticed with singers is locking through the lower abdominal areas, through the solar plexus, and right into the pelvis. It can be in the knees and the buttocks as well. All those areas will just lock and get tense. It can be jaw or tongue tension as well. You can see it sometimes if the individual is really trying to get sound out without releasing; you can see trembling in the lower abdominal area.

Jaw tension is often a position of "we're not going to let anybody in." In a place where you're trying to express very openly and freely, when you're not letting people in, people can see something's going on there. If the tongue is really tense, it will pull the larynx high, which means you're going to have to work extra hard. Imagine if we've got tension here, and here, and we're trying to make a free sound—how much that's going to hold the singer back, not just in their sound, but in their storytelling. You're working against all these roadblocks.
How can singing be both healing and re-traumatizing?
Caleb: Many people see singing as a joyful and expressive act.

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