Send us a textThere's a strange disconnect that happens when you look back at a version of yourself you barely recognize. Opening my old escort Twitter account recently was like unlocking a time capsule to someone I used to be—a medical specialist who lost everything to addiction and found herself selling her body to survive.My descent didn't happen overnight. After losing my medical career to substance abuse, I initially turned to online work with my face concealed. But as financial desperation grew, those boundaries eroded. I remember my first night as an escort vividly—leaving with a thousand dollars cash felt validating when rent was due and my bank account was empty. What began as financially liberating quickly darkened as I was reintroduced to drugs through clients. Late nights, dangerous situations, and intravenous drug use became my normal while I maintained a grandiose self-perception completely divorced from reality.Recovery has given me profound insights about intimacy and connection. I once justified my choices as sexual liberation and breaking taboos, convinced sharing the most intimate parts of myself with strangers was somehow revolutionary. Now I understand that intimacy is precious precisely because it's selective—not from shame, but from value. True fulfillment comes not from chasing desires or seeking validation, but from authentic connection and selflessness. I've forgiven the person I was without absolving responsibility for my actions. She was someone desperately unwell making choices through the fog of addiction, but she isn't me anymore.Whether you're struggling with addiction, processing a difficult chapter of your past, or trying to reconcile who you were with who you've become, know that transformation is possible. Your history doesn't define your future. The person you once were doesn't have to be the person you remain.Support the showThanks for listening! Follow the links below for more! https://www.instagram.com/fitscapades https://patreon.com/fitscapades https://youtube.com/@fitscapades?si=hzhOJ8vjmjz5dAJy TikTok @fitscapades1 twitter/ X fitscapades

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